I’m tired of breaking promises. Not to you, my readers. I’m tired of breaking promises to myself. “Oh, I’ll do a blog every day in October. Oops, didn’t do that. Oh, I know, I’ll make a Christmas related blog for 12 days in a row. Nope, I’m already sick of Christmas.” Screw it. I’m done with that. Consider this blog the one that I declare my resolutions for the year. Not physical “Lose weight” type resolutions. I’m making resolutions for my creative side, which has been stagnating for a while. This blog will outline my plans for my creative output for the whole year.
Okay, time for a completely off the cuff, unplanned post. I have absolutely no idea what I’m going to be writing about here. Probably just a lot of rambling and ranting about my current life situations.
Why am I making this post if I don’ have a specific topic in mind? Well, simply put, I hate it when people I read/watch just disappear without a word. Which is funny coming from me as that happens to me so often. Here’s the thing: I have been really busy. I know that sounds like an excuse, but it’s true. I have an actual paying job now. And the whole situation regarding my grandmother has been one constant struggle after another.
Look, the bottom line here is that I feel completely unmotivated right now to do anything that I’m not paid to do. I don’t know why. I’ve been working on this stupid script for the second episode of Spook Factor for 6 months. I haven’t even felt like writing a simple blog post for a while. I guess because I don’t have TOO much free time, I don’t FEEL like doing anything that feels like work. I find myself with a lot of time to kill, instead of writing, I’ll watch videos or hang out with friends.
And that leads to me feeling guilty that I haven’t done anything a while. Which makes me want to work on some writing or scripting or filming. But then, I go to do that, and it feels like too much work with the amount of stress in my life right now.
Long story short, I’m stuck in the middle of an endless cycle of stress, laziness, guilt, and shame. Now, don’t get me wrong. My life is great. I like my job (though there’s one part of it that’s thankfully over that I want to blog about soon), I love my family (though some parts are very stressful), and I even have a visit planned with my lovely fiancee. I guess I’m just… tired. I’m seriously tired of being in this funk.
I’ll climb out of it eventually, I promise. I think I just need a little more time. And, soon, I hope to start up that spooky side project of mine. Until then, just let me have my rest. Hopefully none of you are too disappointed. I have no plans to ever fully stop what I’m doing, I promise. See you in the (hopefully) not to distant future.
Man plans and God laughs. No matter how well we plan out our time, things happen. If you’ve been keeping up with my family drama lately, you know my grandma recently had hip surgery. For a month, she was doing great. Healthiest person of her age her doctor has ever seen. Things went south quick.
To those who care, she’s fine now. But, basically, after a month of no incidents, suddenly her new hip is infected. Apparently this is fairly common with this type of procedure. However, this means she needs a new new hip. Now, this means one of two things. Option one, she immediately gets a new hip, thus I’d stay with her for an additional month, but she’s prone to another infection. Option two, she gets a placeholder for a month or two that she can’t really put pressure on, thus I’d be staying here for potentially 4 or 5 more months, but the likelihood of infection basically disappears.
What does this mean for the Spook Factor? Long story short, I’m rethinking my hiatus a bit. Meaning, we’d start again much sooner. I’d just have to warn my grandma when I’m filming. I’m just not comfortable putting it off for another 5 months. I’d just have to think of some clever way to explain the new setting or something. Oh, on the note of Spook Factor…
I’m also looking at playing with the format a bit. While I still like the way the first episode came out, I feel like I’m lacking some “oomph,” some voice for my character that I have yet to find. I won’t ever lose my informative tone, but I think I need to find my personality with this show.
I am not sure how often I’ll get episodes out right now. I’m starting a new part of my job: I’m teaching English as a Second Language. It’ll be a challenge, but I’m looking forward to it. On the bright side, I’m still part-time, so I’ll have plenty of time for the show. I just have to find the balance between work, hobby, and play.
Anyway, that’s all I have time for right now. I wanna finish this script as soon as I can. See you next time!
I think this is the first time I’m officially announcing a hiatus for something. Weird.
So, a few life things have happened in my family in the last week. Namely, after a successful hip surgery in December, my grandmother had a pretty nasty fall. She’s fine now, but they did have to operate on the hip again.
What does this mean for me and, more importantly, you? Well, it’s been decided that my grandmother, when she gets out of rehab, should have some constant care for a while. Unfortunately, as it stands, my family can only really afford a day-time nurse for a few hours at a time. Thus, one of us needs to move in with her. Namely, me.
So, I’ll be moving in with my grandma for a while to help her, make sure she doesn’t slip and have another fall, etc. This means… No new Spook Factors for few months. (I’m just as disappointed as you that I’ve only had ONE fricking episode and already have to go on hiatus.)
Unfortunately, I don’t feel comfortable filming while living with her. It’s a quiet neighborhood with nosey neighbors. I would just rather put the show on hiatus than deal with trying to explain what stupid thing I’m doing that week. I’m not gonna let the time go to COMPLETE waste, though. I do plan on continuing my blog and drawing like I have been. I also plan on getting a head start on some other scripts (the scripting for episode 2 is already about half way done).
So, sorry, folks. But the Spook Factor’s taking a long break. But I’ll be back (hopefully) before the summer! Until next time, I’ll see you around the campfire!
So, I’ve been in a writing slump lately. I get this way sometimes with periods where I have hardly any confidence in the stuff I write. Highs and lows. Blah blah, you get it. It’s why I haven’t made the next Spook Factor yet. I’ve also been stuck on what to blog about. I’ve been obsessed with Undertale lately and I DO want to talk about it. However, again, writing slump. As such, I have been looking for another creative outlet. Thus, I come to what I have been up to lately: Fan art.
So, this particular post is going to be a mixed bag. First, we’ll start off with some quick-fire reviews of stuff I’ve been wanting to talk about recently, then I’ll talk about why I’ve been so sporadic with posts this year. Alright, quick-fire reviews!
Something Daffy this way comes!
New review series coming before the end of the month! I hope you’re all as excited about it as I am…
Music: “Ready Aim Fire” by Kevin McLeod